Mocks around the corner and jitters (mild for my case, thankfully) tend to come like butterflies.

I don't know what IS the matter but it's annoying the fuck out of me.


Anyway! Met up with numerous people the past days, great (: I went studying at Compass with elf last Friday and we ended up playing basketball for a moment. Had the first time mentoring at Aljunied, and it turned out quite well! Was verily exhausted, accidentally dozed off at a student's place, crashed home (crashed the bed more likely) but was awaken by my mum grilling salmon, unagi, shisamo and teriyaki chicken.
She loves the grill.
I love her more than she loves the grill!

Sunday Monday Tuesday worth of teaching at Vincent, getting my pay = getting the Ibanez. And a whole lot of studying. Saw elf again on Tuesday with toes-tickling out in the cold wretched weather, missing someone terribly but too proud to say so. Adel popped by, we made merry and off to wherever we are needed.

Az was so excited about the Tioman trip that I have to plan (because of her -.-). I am looking forward to it also, but that's nothing compared to her. HA.


Wednesday was a whole lot of waiting around and studying at terminal 3 with Syahril. And guess who we saw? JONATHAN DAVID ELIAS. Gosh he looks so good now, all the weight loss and his girlfriend's pretty hot ;p But quite a to do catching up and such.
I didn't sit for my Abstract Math paper which was supposed to be yesterday because it was raining boys&girls, and I called Dr Swami and he allowed for today sitting (:

Which in a way wasn't that nice to me. I don't know HOW other's mood could really affect me and just. Bla.

Oh today I went out a-studying with Osha Indah Yun, BUT KYUN DIDN'T TURN UP. WHY.
It was an awesome place to study; Coffeebean Expo. The barista gave Indah a wrong-sized coffee and she only realised it when she's halfway through.
So he made one more for her, the right size. Talk about awesome free coffee.
I managed to do my Abs Math in one and a half hour, leaving a question blank because I didn't study Continuity of Functions. But it was perfect timing because I managed to see Nadz for a moment before she fly off to Aussie. And I finally passed her her book.



I need to start on Solow Growth before I go off to war tomorrow. Macroeconomics!





I think I should sleep it off.

ofblack&white
11:27 PM

Is it really, truly possible for someone to disappear JUST like that, cut away from your life when you're so used to their presence?

This is seriously annoying me.

ofblack&white
9:50 PM

I think he's just trying to annoy the fuck out of me, and he better damn well stop texting me before I go over to his place with a hatchet.
Make it both men. I thought the older you get you're matured enough to understand things. Apparently not. Cyclists and fitness trainers have a problem with understanding no and that you bloody well not WANT them to contact.
Thick.

I am trying to study (for once) and when I start all these annoying dicks come and flood your inbox and persistently trying to garner a response which obviously I did not. But it's adding on to my irritation gauge and it's getting me into quite a sour mood.

GAH.

ofblack&white
9:12 PM

"... But now, with this opportunity I will say that I love you, with all my heart, and yet I think it's not even enough for someone as loving and touching, and giving and gentle and strong and beautiful as someone like you. You're just incomparable.

I know that inevitably, one day, you will leave me to be by His side, and it is not something I look forward to. Frankly I don't even know how to cope with such a loss in my life, and I hope the strength you gave and taught me would suffice through that arduous time,
I really pray it would.

But before that day chance itself, I want to be sure that I had thank you.
Thank you, for all you have done, and all that you will do for me. Through sickness and health, wealth and poverty I will always be there for you.
Thank you for being with me.

I love you, I love you more than words could convey, more than anything else in the world,
I love you.

Please be proud of me, as I am of you.


Your one and only (which makes me technically) your favourite daughter,
Ili."

ofblack&white
12:47 AM

I was having fun experimenting with the micro shot function of my Powershot and they were pretty decent. I shall save the amount for the D60 and make do with what I have.





Much going ons for the past week or so, the family and some extendeds had dinner at Sofra for my mum's birthday.




This is a shameless hussy who rolled and lay on the dining table whilst I teach.


School had been school, the economic jargon quite seeped into my system that I could understand most of what he's lecturing and even explain to Chewy.
Mondays Tuesdays were days of very little sleep, not that I minded, it was with considerably comfortable company ((: Wednesday went Mustafa shopping (Zhong's and her friend Xue's virgin experience) and it was good fun sniffing perfumes,
reeking of perfumes actually. We had a little war on Zhong she stank to high heaven.
And dinner with the two males, Syahril looked so smart in his work attire!


Thursdays were always long days but they get better every passing week. We went for lunch at PS and were joined by the rest and arcade! My goodness it was a total house of sin. Shared the same bowl of fish soup again and a nice walk back ((:

Anyway I was bullied beyond belief to go Sentosa on Friday with Andrea Chinh Gerry Chao Pam&Pris (the Lim twins lol) and Sou. As many things where you expect things to turn bad, it proved to be otherwise. Had my fix of frisbee and soccer and touch rugby, the REAL touch rug with all the yaya rules about five steps ten steps. But it was fun. And burning. I was quite red, as pointed out.
Nice quiet time (:
And then they arcade for a bit. The Lim twins and Sou were ruthless in this peculiar game where you had to throw the ball at the screen.


Mm Pei was so nice to make me chocolates. It's REALLY nice, thank you (:

I went teaching on Saturday with the texts in between (: Had Ivy's party at night and met with the old - Khay Huda Teo Cc Faris Din Zel Fana and Bomb. Sad some of the others didn't turn up. Cc sent most of us home (his Estima can fit) and his driving was... heart-attack inducing, and of course mercilessly teased by the boys -.-

Of days where you can never get happier.
And then you did. Thank you.

ofblack&white
6:54 PM

Fridays tend to go wrong for me. No exception to today. Bad start but somehow it gets better (thankfully) as the day progresses.

School has been muddling my brains as I struggled to find the inertia to get my revision done. It has been silent these few while, but it was comfortable, though there was such yearnings to hear you out.

Mm teaching and what not, tiring but fulfilling, satisfying. Today I felt very contemplative, in the fee-loh-so-fee-kal mode. Grabbing any outlet (turned out to be Naz's daily planner) and hastily scribbled words, as fast as I could without composing the mind so that I could capture my thoughts at it's purest.

Ah we always wished we could be neighbours.


Yesterday I was terribly silly to walk through Bedok Town Park (it's creepy at night, akin to Bedok Reservoir) just so to save 0.90$ on transport. I didn't know what possessed me and I saw quite a number of sleazy-looking characters, and I walked quite speedily.
One of the few moments I felt really scared and vulnerable because I'm just a girl and quite far from civilisation so even I scream no one could hear.
Correction, no one who would/could help could hear.
I prayed for courage and strength, and then I decided to look up into the sky. That's when I never felt alone again. You should see the sight of it! All the stars glittering like diamonds, so clearly that I could see.

Such a nice way to end a night suppering, sharing a bowl of fish soup because we're too poor to afford one each.


Ah, sleep is just what I need.
And mochi ice-cream ((:

ofblack&white
11:59 PM

I don't know how I am surviving with barely six hours of sleep. No thanks to Chewy calling to ask what road our school is, I cannot fall asleep after that. And now here I am, staring in space thinking of what to do, too late to cycle, too early to set off to school. Munching on Great Grains.
Lately I've been sleeping in my pullover and pants due to the exponential surge of mosquitoes. They like to buzz around my ears and I find them terribly irritating, like brothers.

With time to burn I'll just do the mindless Random Things thing that Naz (on her blog), Kyun Lynn Yats (on fb) have tagged me.

By the way, I, self-proclaimed noob of facebook, am no longer a noob of facebook.
But I still don't really fancy it haha.


25 Random Things About Me.


1. In secondary school I look like a total nerd and I have the interests of a nerd. (I fancy to think that I had made improvements!)

2. When I clip my fingers, I make them retardedly short.

3. I only properly listened to music when I was 15, otherwise previously I couldn't really bother?

4. When you open up my cupboard, you'll see books dumped in higgledy-piggledy.

5. When I go down the stairs, it is ALWAYS starting with the right foot and end with the left foot. When I go up the stairs, it is ALWAYS beginning with the left foot and end with a right foot.
I'll feel weird if it doesn't.

6. I have a slight aversion to chocolates, and candies. But I have a sweet tooth, for desserts especially.

7. I like Chinese food.

8. I have a thing for pretty calendars. HA.

9. I use a bathrobe. I'm a coward when it comes to cold.

10. If I stay home the whole day, I'll shower only once. It's not lazy, I'm trying to save the water. Apparently it runs in the blood (not my family but my relatives).

11. I feel horribly insecure if I leave home without a bag.

12. Any dog ear that I see I HAVE to straighten it. I hate dog ears. They spoil books. My students can attest to that.

13. I am a light sleeper, unless I'm exhausted beyond belief. You switch on the lights to my room and I'll wake.

14. Contrary to the very cheerful exterior, I'm quite the morose character inside.

15. I tend to write very well (as told by some) when I am depressed. I guess, to be a writer, I have to be in my hole.

16. I vandalise every surface that I lay my hands on if I could. This includes my computer table.

17. I like to discover songs by chance. Especially when it's nice; feels like you stumbled upon a treasure.

18. Being a girl, new things are my happy pills.

19. I like to be alone, being self-reliant and self-sufficient. That only happens in an ideal world, doesn't it?

20. I have a thing for short and sweet (doesn't only apply to things...).

21. I like to see the expression on people when I shatter their preconceptions of me. So delightful!
I am non-conformist to the extreme please.

22. I am VERY drawn to bags, especially blue chip brands.

23. I don't like to use portable umbrellas because I have to fold them, and anything that requires folding, I HATE.

24. I am actually very fair, but due to the sun sun sun I became what I am, brown.

25. My attention span is horribly short, I can't even watch a movie without someone beside me unless I am verily interested in it.


Okay that's about it. I don't know who to tag? Hamzah? Dr Liu? Kat? Pei En (I KNOW you're reading this)?

ofblack&white
11:01 AM